Monthly Archives: September 2011

Reality Check


Listening to the radio on the way home today I heard a clip about living an alternate reality based in a dream life. Apparently two-thirds of 18-25 year olds dream about being rich and famous. They fantasize about how much better their lives would be if only they had money and everyone knew who they are.

I’ve read the headlines and I’m not all that sure that the famous are living the dream life. Every day their laundry is aired for all the world to see and read about. It doesn’t even have to be “dirty” laundry or true but the entire developing world can find out most details on the lives of the famous. So check that off my list.

Let’s talk about the rich. Now here’s a topic I cannot relate to but oh, do I dream of the day when money is not so tight and we’re not living paycheck to paycheck. Being the parents of two children we definitely struggle but that seems to be a commonality in this generation where both parents have to work to keep the family going.

In my alternate reality I can stay home and raise my children and never have to worry about “making” it to the next paycheck. I have an extremely clean house, I’m much thinner, more creative and my life is “perfect”. Yes, I have a vividly, wild imagination. Whose life is perfect?

The other I shared a Facebook link one of my college friends had posted:

Dirty dishes prove I feed my family, full trashcans prove I clean up after their mess, messy floors prove that I let my child have fun, piles of clean laundry prove I keep my family in clean clothes, a wet bathroom proves that I bathe my child! So next time you walk into my house and see a mess, think twice before you judge!!!

I love it. So while I may not be living the “dream” my life is pretty darn good. I have more than most people in the world. I have a husband who loves me for who I am, I have 2 amazing little girls, a family I’m extremely close with, great in-laws, friends, food, shelter and love. What more do I need?


Finding my Footing


I was born with bilateral club foot. Not a big deal if you never care to run or jump. But growing up always left me with a sense of being the one forgotten. In elementary school I was usually the last one picked for any team. It was usually a struggle for my classmates to choose between me and the one mentally challenged girl in the class. They knew I would slow them down and I knew it too. It still hurt.

By the time I was 12 and heading into middle school I had undergone 7 surgeries to correct my feet. I could walk and when that last cast came off I could even wear almost “normal” shoes. But I would never run or jump…no matter how I tried. I wished I could break free from my feet and feel the earth pounding beneath me. But it was never meant to happen. I used this inability to run or jump as an excuse to not be active. I decided it wasn’t in the cards and to let bygones be bygones. Not a wise choice on my part, but we’ve already discussed my inability to make wise choices in regards to my health.

Now here I am over 20 years since my last surgery and I wonder how I got where I am. I am successful. I have a college degree and a masters degree in Business Administration. I have a husband and 2 beautiful daughters and I am good at what I do. So how am I measuring success? I am measuring the steps I have taken to get to where I am with the need to be healthy. My husband loves me just the way I am although I know he wouldn’t mind me losing a few inches or more. But the decision, as always, has to be mine. I have to say this is for ME!!

Today driving into work I thought how nice it would be to hit the track at the middle school and run at least a mile. I might have a coronary if I do that. My blog post I am working on for work right now includes the top 10 excuses why people don’t exercise. I can relate to a few of those.

Can anyone tell me what gets them going when all the going seems to be gone???

Decisions and Motivation


Ever had one of those days when everyone around you is making better decisions than you are? Welcome to my life!

I work at a fitness company am probably the most obese person here. Did I mention I’ve worked here for 11 years??? You would think I would have started making healthier choices along the way.

Lately I’ve been thinking about seriously making some changes. My husband and I could both afford and benefit to lose over 100 pounds each. YES, you read that right, 100 pounds EACH!!

Today my company catered a lunch for all the employees. These are great because I don’t have to pack a lunch and today was Mexican food. One of my favorites. I ordered the carne asada burrito; a personal favorite and I ate the entire thing, along with chips and guacamole. Will you let me off the hook for drinking water instead of soda?!?!?! My husband and I recently made a conscience decision to quit soda and while we are not perfect we are no longer buying the empty calories for my husband or the poison diet soda for me. Have you seen the research on that?

But I digress; my coworkers sitting at my table did the following: 1. ate her salad leaving the yummy fried tortilla shell. 2. Cut her burrito in half before she even started eating. 3. Stopped eating about halfway through and saved the rest. And me, like the lone male at the table finished the entire burrito. Shoot me now!

I have blamed genetics and my upbringing on how I look and my bad decision making process. I was taught to clean my plate. Old habits die hard.

But it’s all on me. Yes genetics can play a significant role on how my body uses food and responds to exercise, but it’s all me at the end of the day. What I do is because I choose to do so. Now as a mother of a 7-year old and a 4-month old I look in the mirror and see a FAT WOMAN!! I want to be like Jen of Prior Fat Girl and have my confessions be motivators for me to make the right choices more often.

Won’t you join me on my journey?

Hello world!


Today is a new day and today is THE day that I have made a decision. Is it the right decision? Ask me in a few months…maybe days.

I’m really good at making quick decisions and I like to start a project but sticking with a project is another beast in and of itself.

Check back tomorrow for more and a REAL post next time!!